You may have been wondering what happened to me, to this blog…well, if you ‘re still interested in staying tuned, you’ll find me (and my profound musings) on this new blog: (R)evolutionary Transformation. Since my last post here in January of 2018 I have made a quantum leap (so to speak) and feel now settled enough in my new life, my new perception of the worlds that I can share more about it from that new viewpoint. See you at (R)evolutionary Transformation!
„God is the denial of denials“ Meister Eckhart
For most people, a Spiritual Awakening – as unsettling, disruptive or shocking it may appear in the beginning – is perceived as a positive, eye-opening, mind-expanding experience. There’s another type of ‘Mortal’ Awakening happening right now, one that may be experienced just as disruptive and upsetting – or even more so. While the first opens our perception to something that’s beyond this world, this reality, and let’s us take a ‘look behind the veils’, the latter is showing us what’s right in front of our eyes: what’s happening to our physical world.
As my own Spiritual Awakening seemed to unfold over the course of many years, my ‘Mortal Awakening’ in 2017 was more of the jolted-me-awake type. Both events represented life-changing shifts of consciousness for me but they had another important aspect in common: DEATH.
One of the crucial elements of my Spiritual Awakening was the realization that physical life may end with death but consciousness does transcend it. This shift in perception was significant but didn’t affect any of my day-to-day life much until 14 months ago when I woke up from my blissful ignorance about the current ‘state of affairs’ and became acutely aware of the predicament we are facing. When I say “we” I mean all living beings on this beautiful planet. After extensive research and diving into the science of Abrupt Climate Change, current level of pollution, limits to resources (and growth) on earth as well as exponential growth, it was clear to me that we are in another extinction cycle. One of several this planet has gone through.
Nothing to get excited about, really…except for the fact that things are happening much faster than previously predicted. Generations of humans currently alive will witness dramatic changes worldwide within a much shorter time than we ever have in history (at least to my limited knowledge). I suppose then my awakening was caused by a ‘near-death-experience’ as you frequently hear about in spiritual circles, only this one was the awareness of a potential ‘near death’ (whatever ‘near’ means) for not only myself but many other species as well, a mass extinction.
How can it be then, that on the spiritual websites that I used to visit in the past there’s only talk about this magical, wonderful world that we are about to experience soon? I suppose they‘re not referring to this reality. But if they are, they‘re truly waiting for miracles to happen. As much as I love miracles I’d then tend to go with Carolyn Baker and Andrew Harvey‘s assessment of an „…emphasis in spiritual cirles on a fake compassion and cheerfulness….[where] people have been trained in habits they call spiritual but which really are designed to reinforce bypassing and dissociation…“
Suddenly it dawned on me: this sense of hyperactive overindulgement in numbing entertainment that I’ve been witnessing around me (and been guilty of myself) is simply an attempt to dissociate from the reality we’re facing on this planet. Now it all makes sense. The human collective, or rather the collective unconscious, is – at a deep level – very aware of the dire situation we are in. That’s why anxieties, depression, aggression and a constant state of busy-ness are dis-eases going rampant these days. These are either direct responses to the lifestressors we’re currently exposed to or distractions, defense-mechanisms to keep that growing knowledge about our – and so many other species‘ – demise at bay.
I was shocked to see how much I, myself, have been guilty of either escapism and spiritual bypass (when I tried to escape to the other realms where everything was so much better) or complete denial by „always being too busy“ or „too exhausted“ or simply numbing myself by surfing the internet.
Thanks to my „Awakening to death“ I realized life is too short for this sh!#. Time to live. 2018 will mark a new chapter in my book. One of my first steps was to quit my job. No idea where this journey is taking me but it’s time to make the best out of what remains. Love fiercely and live (com)passionately to the fullest!
Happy New Year!
For those of you interested in further reading I added a few links that only represent a portion of those that I found helpful in understanding what’s going on. If you’re interested in finding out more about the planet’s environmental situation, climate change etc – pls search for your own sources, there are plenty to choose from.
http://www.kosmosjournal.org/article/kali-takes-the-world-dark-night-of-the-world-soul/
https://charleseisenstein.net/essays/mutiny/
http://www.debozarko.com/awakening/
https://www.kosmosjournal.org/news/19905/
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Denial_of_Death
http://www.peterrussell.com/blindspot/blindspot2.php
….and check out articles or the book by Pulitzer Prize winner Elizabeth Kolbert ‘6th mass extinction’
Hello Everyone,
It’s been a while since my last post. 2016 has been really busy and quite a challenge – not only for me, it seems. How have you survived ? Almost a year ago, during the holidays december of 2015, I experienced the phoenix, the symbol of TRANSFORMATION. It was a very intense and positive time. At the time I had no clue what kind of change was about to occur. In fact, in the first 6 months of the year, I thought the change I was being alerted to was about my mortal life, about being more involved in the mortal world. Now I’m not so sure about that anymore. I finally found a new office for my practice and we had several projects renovating our house that kept me REAL busy. I still did my meditations and sessions with guidance but felt consumed by the demands of ‘this world’. Finally, during a summer break, I felt a ‘change of tides‘ and my attention was drawn back to the metaphysical world. Since then (the last 6 months) I’ve been busy in a very different way. I was back -yet in a different way – connecting to, working with and being in the metaphysical realms. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t all that easy. In fact, all my connections were being changed and I am (still) struggling to get back a similarly good rapport that I used to have – with guidance and anybody or anything else in the other realms. It’s been an emotional roller coaster going from an exhilarating high to a depressing disconnected low.
During the LOWS I noticed that my old ways of seeking comfort weren’t working anymore. In the past, among a few other things, I would look at ‘energy updates’ or the latest news of some selected channelers and sites hoping to reconnect that way. However, over the course of the last 12 – 24 months, their messages have either not resonated with me anymore, sounded very repetitive or simply ‘nuts’. Some don’t have much to say and post less (avoiding repetitions? ) and yet others completely vanished. I wonder what’s going on?!? Maybe my path is going a completely different direction than it used to? If I am not part of their ‘world’ anymore – and they’re not part of mine – it would explain the ‘not-resonating-anymore’ …. but the rest?
I wonder who else is feeling this way?
For a long time, talking about ‘ascension symptoms’ seemed very common on spiritual websites. It actually became the basis for some sites / groups / forums on the internet and I’ve mentioned them on this blog at least twice ( Suffering from Ascension and No Shit ). They were labelled ‘physical side effects’ of ascension….. but what’s this ascension really about? Anyone an idea? What is or was the purpose of all these ‘higher frequency upgrades’? Why is it that there is seemingly no new info coming through the channelers? Could it be that this whole ‘frequency upgrade’ stuff isn’t preparing us for something in this life or reality (i.e. the wonderful world, the shiny new planet earth with awakened souls) but rather a preparation for our afterlife? What’s your thought?
5 months ago I posted the ‘wave of change‘ and indeed I got hit by a huge wave. Was it a wipe out? I am not sure. I definitely feel ‘wiped out’ at this point….but I am still here, alive and ticking. This will be a different post and shorter than my previous ones. I simply wanted to inform those who have visited my blog in the past 5 months without finding any new posts and (some) who asked if everything was okay that, yes, I am fine – exhausted but fine. Thank you so much for caring. It has been a busy time. Life is not the same anymore, not only on a personal level. We live in a different world than we did 5 months ago. Now where were you again in February?
Anyway, while the past few months seemed to be dominated by changes in the mundane physical world and surroundings, it seems my focus is now shifting back to the metaphysical realms. From running around and being ‘out and about’ I am ready to put on the brakes and focus within. I am basically just stopping by at my blog before going into hibernation (also called ‘my cave’). Once again I retreat from the ongoing buzz of daily life into a more meditative state focused on connecting to the metaphysical realms (see my post from december ‘Changing tradition‘). It seems counterintuitive to turn inwards in the summer when all the action is going on outside but I’m also aware of the importance of listening to one’s own unique rhythm and needs.When it means ‘swimming against the current’ then that’ll be what I will do.
See you upon my return….although at this point I cannot see myself returning to ‘the old ways’ of blogging once I get out of my cave, but who knows….there may be yet another change. Things happen so quickly these days, it is hard to keep up with it all. Wave after wave……
Have you been hit by it as well ? There is a wave of change that seems to be crashing into this reality with full force. Will I be able to ride it or is it going to be a wipe out? At this point I have no clue how I am supposed to get through this and not be washed away by all the NEW coming up everywhere.
Ever since the second week of January life has taken on a completely different rhythm. Could it be that all those months years of living in limbo are finally over? For months I’ve been wanting to write a post but nothing ever made it to the blog. The old ways of writing / communicating don’t feel right anymore. Everything seems to go through a process of reevaluation. In the past weeks when I thought of blogging it felt more like a chore than a fun experiment of sharing my Spiritual adventures so it may be time to take a longer break.
For so many months the emphasis (of my life) seemed to be on the metaphysical side with so-called ascension symptoms reminding me that I was still integrating all that work I was doing ‘on the other side’ into this reality, this body. For the most part though, it felt like I wasn’t really here. However, since the beginning of January I find myself participating very much in THIS reality, involved in several new projects at the same time. This was unthinkable a few weeks ago when the mere thought of getting anything accomplished that went beyond my one-day-horizon seemed impossible. No. Energy. Left.
Now the game has changed – and I wonder how many of you feel it too. Have we finally made the transition – the change that we’ve all been waiting for? Is this the completion of the shift I was told about and mentioned in my post ‘Intense transformative times‘? Is all the work that we have done in the metaphysical realms finally coming to fruition in this 3D reality as well? Is it possible that we have reached a level of integration where playing in several dimensions (including this one) is happening with less and less effort and becoming the norm?
Earlier on my Spiritual Journey I read energy updates and other channeled material to either see if I had the same experiences or what was supposedly ahead of us. I got tired of those repetitive channeled messages – they all seemed to say the same thing. However, it seems that the undertone of their writings seems to have changed in the last month, there is a noticeable change – in all of them. So what’s this wave of change about? Who knows – best to go with the flow and let it surprise you.
Depending on whether I will master the wave or wipe out, you may hear from me or……. In any case I wish you all fun experiencing the changes within and without and being (in) the NEW.
Feeling pushed to the limit– sounds familiar? I’ve had such a nice and somewhat quiet time over the holidays, at least concerning THIS reality. There was lots going on in the other realms….but that is another story, perhaps one to be told later. After having returned from my retreat, I am now faced with a lot of mundane issues (one of the reasons I’ve been so inactive on WP lately). Well, I can definitely relate to the ‘being pushed to the limit’. How about you?
PS: the ‘real’ report doesn’t start until 8:13 mins – if you don’t care for his 3D computer images
Hola Star People!
How about that planetary lineup that is happening in the early morning sky from now thru late February???? At least we’ve got some time to muster up the chi to get out and see it if not tomorrow, eh? Well, hope you have clear skies and don’t get up for nothin’! Especially when you probably need as much sleep as you can get these days when everything is bongo nuts, intense, and stressful. Great time to get things done but don’t forget to relax and breathe! This weekend is looking like a great time to let off some steam, play, create, and find your child again. Go for it!
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When I am in my Spirit Self,
There is no loss or gain,
My fears disperse as I liberate,
And am free to fly again.
That’s what we need these days, to find the portal to the Spirit Self and view our earthly dilemmas from there! Nice if you have a nice shamanic drumbeat to journey up to the “top of the sky” and cut a circular hole in it, open the hatch, and go through it into the celestial world. A beautiful journey that can be quite healing (I met one of my spirit guides that way) especially during times of stress and strain on the physical plane.
As I mention in this week’s report, this certainly is a time for some great stress and strain that can come in many guises, but will push us to our limits one way or another. It is as if the universe is plotting to see just what “stuff” we are made of…… “Come on! Take that! Whatcha gonna do now, huh?” You can almost picture some character out there egging us on……. wooooo.
Well, the full Moon in Leo this weekend will really offer all of us an opportunity to let off some steam, chill out and have some fun. May you have great, harmless, creative extravaganzas leading to new heart openings!
Have Fun With It All,
Kaypacha
In my experience, the most effective, truly transformative and longest lasting change comes from within. In my last post ‘Rising Phoenix‘ I shared a little about the initiation of such a transformative experience. I haven’t shared much about the transformation initiated by this event. As this is an ongoing process, it will take a while to integrate and see what is unfolding.
However, one of the results will also affect my blog – the reason I would like to share this part with you now. As you may have already noticed, there have been less posts (not counting reblogs) in the last couple of months and that’ll most likely be the case for a while. Also, I decided to change my writing style a bit. ‘Keep it simple‘ is very important. I’ll stop mulling over my posts for hours and instead will write what comes to mind, do less editing and…push ‘publish’. So future posts will be straight from the heart with less censorship by the brain.
‘Keep it simple’ will also be the approach to the holidays this year. I know some of you won’t celebrate christmas – but the majority of people I know or come in contact with do. In the past I’ve enjoyed celebrating it in one way or another. This year (and in a way the last 3 years) there’s just not that ‘christmas – feel’ to it. Although part of me wants to hold on to the old traditions, the other side of me which is gaining power, is telling me to let go of the old. But how do you decide what to let go off? CHANGE is what’s needed. Letting go of things that one is fed up with is easy, letting go of things/traditions/people etc. that one still loves is a much harder task. So I am still trying to find some kind of compromise but I thought I’d use the holidays for a different kind of ‘celebration’ this year. For many, it is a time to get together, to (re)connect to loved-ones and some not-so-loved-ones. It’s tradition, what can you say? And after spending time with food, family and friends, many will seek connection (distraction, entertainment, information) on the internet. I have the intention to turn into a more contemplative state over the holidays. Instead of connecting on the internet, I want to spend more time actually connecting to the metaphysical realms. The overload of info coming out of the internet sometimes seems counterproductive. Keeping up with all the contacts can be overwhelming. Maybe the holidays is a good time to simplify and stay off the grid. What do you think?
Happy Holidays … and a Happy New Year
“THE PHOENIX embodies the theme of transmutation… Mythology tells us that at the end of its life, the Phoenix sets its own nest on fire. After the bird is consumed by the flames, a new Phoenix emerges from the ashes. When we emulate the Phoenix, we embrace the process of transformation and recognize that a part of our earthly experience includes death. We allow ourselves to be consumed by the flames with the knowing that nothing is ever really lost, and that rebirth always follows what appears to be an ending.” (Pam Younghans, Northpointastrology)
It’s been more than 2 months since my last post (not counting the reblogs of course) and it’s not like there wasn’t anything to write about during that time, quite the contrary. Those rare moments when I attempted to create a new post, I immediately got distracted or simply couldn’t ‘pull it together’. In the end it just didn’t feel like the right time (yet). These past two months seem to have gone by in a flash for me, filled with so much new information, so many new experiences. October still being an intense preparation time and November marking the launch of a new level, a new being….and here we are in December!
I decided to share some of my recent experiences with you. Perhaps you have undergone or will be undergoing a similar process. As we are all on our individual Spiritual Paths, this may play out differently for you, perhaps take on a different form. In any case the emphasis of this period we’re in is TRANSFORMATION. After a long time of letting go, of cleansing, purging and clearing, of freeing ourselves from old baggage and patterns, it is time to step into the new, to RISE FROM THE ASHES.
In October I reblogged a post by Lauren Gorgo (Resurrection: a new life cycle begins) describing a similar stage of the process. It sounded a lot like the transformation of the phoenix. She talked about the process of sorting through the parts of our self that we will/ will not be taking with us and pulling remaining soul fragments back from our old lives. She also mentioned this sorting and reclamation process requires our complete focus on ourselves and that it may feel to us “… as tho we are in a bubble and everything that matters to us is rescinding…”. She warned us these transition experiences may feel like death….and I have to agree. Her post really resonated with me – she described many of my experiences at that time!
On November 11 I was being guided into becoming the PHOENIX during a very powerful, deeply moving meditation session. In the previous weeks my Guides and others had been preparing me for this event. Since then I’ve had numerous more sessions focused on (co)creating myself, rising from the ashes, if you will. It’s an ongoing development, so I have no idea where this is going but one of the things I’ve learnt is to trust the process. Actually, during one of the sessions, I was told that TRUST, POWER and CONFIDENCE were the basic ingredients for my creation process. Another time I was asked to confront my fears, in the mortal as well as metaphysical realms. It felt like I was working through, burning off, layers of old patterns. Many of the continuous session were focused on the recurring questions: ‘who are you?’ and ‘what do you want?’. These are very important questions – for those of us currently undergoing this deep transformation process.
At this time it seems crucial to come to know who we are, who we want to be and take on our individual role as the Sacred Beings that we are – so that we can truly be in our power.
REINVENTING YOURSELF– those are the words that stood out for me … but there is a lot more to this pele report, so check it out. There is a lot going on in the planetary alignments…and here on Earth as well. I will share a bit more about my recent experiences with you soon. REINVENT YOURSELF being the current theme, it seems.
The magical mystery of Spirit,
Is that it descends from above,
As I let go of my personal needs,
And desire to serve with love.
Well, Yup, these are still crazy times and I don’t see the craziness coming to an end anytime soon. Saturn/Neptune aspects are traditionally associated with depression. Saturn in Sag NEEDS to find a deeper meaning and purpose for our existence (thank goddess we have 2 years!) or we can down the wormhole of “why bother?”
So in some ways we can say that if your boat is getting tipped, your world shook, it is Spirit pushing you out of your distractions, routines, and dependencies TO ASSIST you in expanding your reality to include a greater, bigger, deeper, broader, and wider purose for your existence on this planet at this time. Go for it! Connect with something bigger than you are, take the challenge and you will find a brighter, fuller, future. Namaste’!
Oops…my computer just ate what I wrote. So much for communication problems 🙂 Oh well, so I will just tell you: hope you’re having fun with this (latest) pele report from Kaypacha and keep the rest for later…
G’day Astro Mates!
Well, we have a good week of what could best be called “strained communication” and at it’s worst just downright blocked or negative thinking. I suppose the upside would be that we need to really stick with it, get our story straight, clear, and together, and most of all, really want to even have the conversation in the first place haha! Gotta push through some barriers to connect these days but the results can be some long term contracts, commitments, and educational endeavors that last a long time!
I’m hanging in there and am committed to this astrology stuff, and though challenged, am presenting a number of workshops, making some vids, and with great excitement, putting out these great T-shirts in time for Christmas haha! It has been suggested by many people over a long period of time so we will see if they fly or not.
This can actually be a bit of a dangerous time, as I speak of in the Pele Report, with Mars conjunct Lilith all week. A time when it can take more awareness, patience and understanding to keep our relationships floating through rough seas. One way to really know how bad you want something is to have it require dedication, perseverance, and powerful intention. These days can be like the final exam with the big essay question of “Can you get along with others and stop projecting your shadow on them?” We may think everyone else is irritable or giving us a hard time when it is really our own unwillingness to meet them halfway.
As I see the big picture of our children’s future,
I know there’s a lot to do,
That begins with accepting and not regretting,
That I am another you.
It is often easier to see everyone else’s shadow, problems, and faults than it is to see our own. It seems easier to blame and point the finger than to own that we could have tried harder, stayed in there longer, and had a different result. Well this is one of those times where exercising patience, and calm, deep listening, can bear some positive results and long lasting commitments/contracts. While it may be grueling to go over the details and come to agreements, it is like the universe is demanding that we really get clear on what we want, what we believe, what our truth is and what energy we are spreading around the place. Whew!
May you triumph over the obstacles and blocks to speaking your truth and honoring the others and building powerful lasting relationships based on honesty, integrity,and trust. Go for it!
So Much Love,
Kaypacha
Universal Transformation 