An Awakening …. to Death

„God is the denial of denials“  Meister Eckhart

For most people, a Spiritual Awakening – as unsettling, disruptive or shocking it may appear in the beginning – is perceived as a positive, eye-opening, mind-expanding experience. There’s another type of ‘Mortal’ Awakening happening right now, one that may be experienced just as disruptive and upsetting – or even more so. While the first opens our perception to something that’s beyond this world, this reality, and let’s us take a ‘look behind the veils’, the latter is showing us what’s right in front of our eyes: what’s happening to our physical world.

As my own Spiritual Awakening seemed to unfold over the course of many years, my ‘Mortal Awakening’ in 2017 was more of the jolted-me-awake type. Both events represented life-changing shifts of consciousness for me but they had another important aspect in common: DEATH.

One of the crucial elements of my Spiritual Awakening was the realization that physical life may end with death but consciousness does transcend it. This shift in perception was significant but didn’t affect any of my day-to-day life much until 14 months ago when I woke up from my blissful ignorance about the current ‘state of affairs’ and became acutely aware of the predicament we are facing. When I say “we” I mean all living beings on this beautiful planet. After extensive research and diving into the science of Abrupt Climate Change, current level of pollution, limits to resources (and growth) on earth as well as exponential growth,  it was clear to me that we are in another extinction cycle. One of several this planet has gone through.

Nothing to get excited about, really…except for the fact that things are happening much faster than previously predicted. Generations of humans currently alive will witness dramatic changes worldwide within a much shorter time than we ever have in history (at least to my limited knowledge). I suppose then my awakening was caused by a ‘near-death-experience’ as you frequently hear about in spiritual circles, only this one was the awareness of a potential ‘near death’ (whatever ‘near’ means)  for not only myself but many other species as well, a mass extinction.

How can it be then, that on the spiritual websites that I used to visit in the past there’s only talk about this magical, wonderful world that we are about to experience soon? I suppose they‘re not referring to this reality. But if they are, they‘re truly waiting for miracles to happen. As much as I love miracles I’d then tend to go with Carolyn Baker and Andrew Harvey‘s assessment of an „…emphasis in spiritual cirles on a fake compassion and cheerfulness….[where] people have been trained in habits they call spiritual but which really are designed to reinforce bypassing and dissociation…“

Suddenly it dawned on me: this sense of hyperactive overindulgement in numbing entertainment that I’ve been witnessing around me (and been guilty of myself) is simply an attempt to dissociate from the reality we’re facing on this planet. Now it all makes sense. The human collective, or rather the collective unconscious, is – at a deep level – very aware of the dire situation we are in. That’s why anxieties, depression, aggression and a constant state of busy-ness are dis-eases going rampant these days. These are either direct responses to the lifestressors we’re currently exposed to or distractions, defense-mechanisms to keep that growing knowledge about our – and so many other species‘ – demise at bay.

I was shocked to see how much I, myself, have been guilty of either escapism and spiritual bypass (when I tried to escape to the other realms where everything was so much better) or complete denial by „always being too busy“ or „too exhausted“ or simply numbing myself by surfing the internet.

Thanks to my „Awakening to death“ I realized life is too short for this sh!#. Time to live. 2018 will mark a new chapter in my book. One of my first steps was to quit my job. No idea where this journey is taking me but it’s time to make the best out of what remains. Love fiercely and live (com)passionately to the fullest!

Happy New Year!

 

For those of you interested in further reading I added a few links that only represent a portion of those that I found helpful in understanding what’s going on. If you’re interested in finding out more about the planet’s environmental situation, climate change etc – pls search for your own sources, there are plenty to choose from.

http://www.kosmosjournal.org/article/kali-takes-the-world-dark-night-of-the-world-soul/

https://charleseisenstein.net/essays/mutiny/

http://www.debozarko.com/awakening/

https://www.kosmosjournal.org/news/19905/

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Denial_of_Death

http://www.peterrussell.com/blindspot/blindspot2.php

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/blog/2016/apr/19/why-limits-to-growths-forecasts-are-still-relevant-today

….and check out articles or the book by Pulitzer Prize winner Elizabeth Kolbert ‘6th mass extinction’

 

Ascension – preparing for afterlife?

Hello Everyone,

It’s been a while since my last post. 2016 has been really busy and quite a challenge – not only for me, it seems. How have you survived ? Almost a year ago, during the holidays december of 2015, I experienced the phoenix, the symbol of TRANSFORMATION. It was a very intense and positive time. At the time I had no clue what kind of change was about to occur. In fact, in the first 6 months of the year, I thought the change I was being alerted to was about my mortal life, about being more involved in the mortal world. Now I’m not so sure about that anymore. I finally found a new office for my practice and we had several projects renovating our house that kept me REAL busy. I still did my meditations and sessions with guidance but felt consumed by the demands of ‘this world’.  Finally, during a summer break, I felt a ‘change of tides‘ and my attention was drawn back to the metaphysical world. Since then (the last 6 months) I’ve been  busy  in a very different way. I was back -yet in a different way – connecting to, working with and being in the metaphysical realms. Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t all that easy. In fact, all my connections were being changed and I am (still) struggling to get back a similarly good rapport that I used to have – with guidance and anybody or anything else in the other realms. It’s been an emotional roller coaster going from an exhilarating high to a depressing disconnected low.

During the LOWS I noticed that my old ways of seeking comfort weren’t working anymore. In the past, among a few other things, I would look at ‘energy updates’ or the latest news of some selected channelers and sites hoping to reconnect that way. However, over the course of the last 12 – 24 months, their messages have either not resonated with me anymore, sounded very repetitive or simply ‘nuts’. Some don’t have much to say and post less (avoiding repetitions? )  and yet others completely vanished. I wonder what’s going on?!? Maybe my path is going a completely different direction than it used to? If I am not part of their ‘world’ anymore – and they’re not part of mine – it would explain the ‘not-resonating-anymore’ …. but the rest?

I wonder who else is feeling this way?

For a long time, talking about ‘ascension symptoms’ seemed very common on spiritual websites. It actually became the basis for some sites / groups / forums on the internet and I’ve mentioned them on this blog at least twice ( Suffering from Ascension  and No Shit ). They were labelled ‘physical side effects’ of ascension….. but what’s this ascension really about? Anyone an idea? What is or was the purpose of all these ‘higher frequency upgrades’? Why is it that there is seemingly  no new info coming through the channelers? Could it be that this whole ‘frequency upgrade’ stuff isn’t preparing us for something in this life or reality (i.e. the wonderful world, the shiny new planet earth with awakened souls) but rather a preparation for our afterlife? What’s your thought?

 

 

CHANGE of tides

5 months ago I posted the ‘wave of change‘ and indeed I got hit by a huge wave. Was it a wipe out? I am not sure. I definitely feel ‘wiped out’ at this point….but I am still here, alive and ticking. This will be a different post and shorter than my previous ones. I simply wanted to inform those who have visited my blog in the past 5 months without finding any new posts and (some) who asked if everything was okay that, yes, I am fine – exhausted but fine. Thank you so much for caring. It has been a busy time. Life is not the same anymore, not only on a personal level. We live in a different world than we did 5 months ago. Now where were you again in February?

Anyway, while the past few months seemed to be dominated by changes in the mundane physical world and surroundings, it seems my focus is now shifting back to the metaphysical realms. From running around and being ‘out and about’ I am ready to put on the brakes and focus within. I am basically just stopping by at my blog before going into hibernation (also called ‘my cave’). Once again I retreat from the ongoing buzz of daily life into a more meditative state focused on connecting to the metaphysical realms (see my post from december ‘Changing tradition‘). It seems counterintuitive to turn inwards in the summer when all the action is going on outside but I’m also aware of the importance of listening to one’s own unique rhythm and needs.When it means ‘swimming against the current’ then that’ll be what I will do.

See you upon my return….although at this point I cannot see myself returning to ‘the old ways’ of blogging once I get out of my cave, but who knows….there may be yet another change. Things happen so quickly these days, it is hard to keep up with it all. Wave after wave……

 

 

 

Rising Phoenix

“THE PHOENIX embodies the theme of transmutation… Mythology tells us that at the end of its life, the Phoenix sets its own nest on fire. After the bird is consumed by the flames, a new Phoenix emerges from the ashes. When we emulate the Phoenix, we embrace the process of transformation and recognize that a part of our earthly experience includes death. We allow ourselves to be consumed by the flames with the knowing that nothing is ever really lost, and that rebirth always follows what appears to be an ending.” (Pam Younghans, Northpointastrology)

It’s been more than 2 months since my last post (not counting the reblogs of course) and it’s not like there wasn’t anything to write about during that time, quite the contrary. Those rare moments when I attempted to create a new post, I immediately got distracted or simply couldn’t ‘pull it together’. In the end it just didn’t feel like the right time (yet). These past two months seem to have gone by in a flash for me, filled with so much new information, so many new experiences. October still being an intense preparation time and November marking the launch of a new level, a new being….and here we are in December!

I decided to share some of my recent experiences with you. Perhaps you have undergone or will be undergoing a similar process. As we are all on our individual Spiritual Paths, this may play out differently for you, perhaps take on a different form. In any case the emphasis of this period we’re in is  TRANSFORMATION. After a long time of letting go, of cleansing, purging and clearing, of freeing ourselves from old baggage and patterns, it is time to step into the new, to RISE FROM THE ASHES.

In October I reblogged a post by Lauren Gorgo (Resurrection: a new life cycle begins) describing a similar stage of the process. It sounded a lot like the transformation of the phoenix. She talked about the process of sorting through the parts of our self that we will/ will not be taking with us and pulling remaining soul fragments back from our old lives. She also mentioned this sorting and reclamation process requires our complete focus on ourselves and that it may feel to us “… as tho we are in a bubble and everything that matters to us is rescinding…”. She warned us these transition experiences may feel like death….and I have to agree. Her post really resonated with me – she described many of my experiences at that time!

On November 11 I was being guided into becoming the PHOENIX during a very powerful, deeply moving meditation session. In the previous weeks my Guides and others had been preparing me for this event. Since then I’ve had numerous more sessions focused on (co)creating myself, rising from the ashes, if you will. It’s an ongoing development, so I have no idea where this is going but one of the things I’ve learnt is to trust the process. Actually, during one of the sessions, I was told that  TRUST, POWER and CONFIDENCE were the basic ingredients for my creation process. Another time I was asked to confront my fears, in the mortal as well as metaphysical realms. It felt like I was working through, burning off, layers of old patterns. Many of the continuous session were focused on the recurring questions: ‘who are you?’ and ‘what do you want?’. These are very important questions – for those of us currently undergoing this deep transformation process.

At this time it seems crucial to come to know who we are, who we want to be and take on our individual role as the Sacred Beings that we are – so that we can truly be in our power.

 

 

 

 

 

KAYPACHA ~ pele report : Reinventing yourself

REINVENTING YOURSELF– those are the words that stood out for me … but there is a lot more to this pele report, so check it out. There is a lot going on in the planetary alignments…and here on Earth as well. I will share a bit more about my recent experiences with you soon. REINVENT YOURSELF being the current theme, it seems.

The magical mystery of Spirit,
Is that it descends from above,
As I let go of my personal needs,
And desire to serve with love.

Well, Yup, these are still crazy times and I don’t see the craziness coming to an end anytime soon. Saturn/Neptune aspects are traditionally associated with depression. Saturn in Sag NEEDS to find a deeper meaning and purpose for our existence (thank goddess we have 2 years!) or we can down the wormhole of “why bother?”

So in some ways we can say that if your boat is getting tipped, your world shook, it is Spirit pushing you out of your distractions, routines, and dependencies TO ASSIST you in expanding your reality to include a greater, bigger, deeper, broader, and wider purose for your existence on this planet at this time. Go for it! Connect with something bigger than you are, take the challenge and you will find a brighter, fuller, future. Namaste’!

Resurrection: a new life cycle begins ~ by Lauren Gorgo

It’s been a while since I have posted any of my own writing. For a few weeks now it feels as if I am more and more detached from anything that’s part of this 3D physical reality. One of the reasons why I found this update from Lauren Gorgo worth reblogging is that she is talking about that exact topic. Being in a ” very liquidy void space where everything is kind of floating in an abyss with little to no structure and/or ability to decipher where we are headed or why…most of us can’t muster up the motivation to care” sounds oh-too-familiar. It felt like any creative energies have left me … and most of the time I don’t even care about that. However, that state is NO FUN to be in.

“so it can feel as tho we are in a bubble and everything that matters to us is rescinding… pulling away and/or ending” – yep, I can DEFINITELY relate to that. Unfortunately. But there is hope. That’s the reason I decided to post this for all of you out there who know what I am talking about.

I feel especially strong about her message because just two days ago, I suddenly had to think about ( = my guides brought to my attention) a meditation I had end of June. During that meditation I was told by guidance that in 3-5 months (Oct. – Dec.) there’d be a change…of my biological being. They also mentioned an exit, but said it wouldn’t be out of this life. In 8 months (March) there would be a birth of a new life. This, again, coincides with information I received in September about a shift to be completed around that time (“…. indicated that the shift should be over by mid March. I was told that this also applied to others on the spiritual path”). So how about that ‘physical rebirth point’?

Are YOU ready for a new life cycle? Hope you enjoy this reblog, Gia

Resurrection: a new life cycle begins

October 22, 2015 by Lauren

For the pioneers, wayshowers, forerunners who have cleared all emotional and genetic miasms, a new life cycle awaits. Many contracts have been completed thru core wound clearing which means some are ready to move deeper into the resurrection phase of the ascension process.

As we leave the old reality system and prepare to enter fully into the new, we approach what my Sources call our physical rebirth point….”the moment when the changes of our higher dimensional nature merge with our lower body system”

As of 10/10 many at the fore have completed a major life cycle, entered into a holding space, and are preparing to begin a brand new chapter of life on 11/11.

September, and all of its accompanying celestial blessings, brought us THE force...the Source frequency (creation) codes needed for our new life cycle…where October has been clearing the space in our bodies (hello super intensified solar activity) for those energies to enter and anchor into the physical parts of our lives and world. November (universal ONE month) will reveal our new path/purpose more clearly, along with the physical components needed to create it.

At the moment we are currently in a very liquidy void space where everything is kind of floating in an abyss with little to no structure and/or ability to decipher where we are headed or why…most of us can’t muster up the motivation to care.  Even still, there is a steady new creative constant that is always rallying beneath us, pulsing thru us, even if barely perceptible at times…a palpable, vibrational safety net that prevents us from falling prey to the past, to the (under)world that we have just very recently moved out of……CONTINUE READING HERE

KAYPACHA ~ pele report: get your act together

And here we go again: the latest pele report about purging, releasing, finetuning…with other words: a challenging time! Time to get your act together. Enjoy…if you can 🙂

I’m always choosing to evolve or not,

By leaving or sticking around,

Right now is the time to fully engage,

and not quit til the job is done.

OK, OK, no more early morning Pele Reports haha!  To tie up and conclude this report, we need to unite some of the separate threads.  Basically, this can be a time of fulfillment where you need to work and complete what you started, or it can be a time of overload where you are totally burnt out on what you are doing and experiencing a work crisis.

So this goes back to the need for deep self-contemplation, meditation, and a deepening of your connection to your soul purpose and the timing of its unfolding.  In general, I would say that if you are in alignment and expressing your deepest soul’s (unconscious remember) evolutionary intention (return or separate), then this is a time of it really coming together!  If you are not satisfied in/with your work environment it will reflect the need to change/alter.expand it in some way.

Of course, the house placement of Virgo in your natal chart will also yield you more information as well as the aspects that this conjunction is making to other planets.  I will be taking this Jupiter/Saturn/Neptune “T-square for 2016” through the houses in another video/videos.  If you are interested that will be coming out and available to the New Paradigm Community free and on the New Paradigm website if you’re not in the community.  Namaste’ and best wishes for happy working bees making future honey!

So Much Love!

Kaypacha​

Intense transformative times

During July and August, the internet was buzzing with a great variety of predictions from ‘wave x’ to ‘the tsunami of love’, another financial crisis, a meteor hitting earth and numerous other big events.  So like many of us I was curious what September would bring, wondering if big change is near. Well, perhaps it’s not THE big one, but for me – and many others – September seems to be a transformative month.

The information I received may apply to you, or not. I decided to share it here as it may be ‘the light at the end of the tunnel’ for some. Especially those who have been struggling with the ‘side effects’ of their spiritual path, aka spiritual growing pains, may be interested in this little bit of information I am offering. As with all things, take what resonates with you and leave the rest behind. The following info was brought through over a period of 10 days by my Spirit Guides and a group of other metaphysicals I regularly contact.

During a meditation session on September 8th, I started hearing the words ‘in and out’ referring to a back-and-forth movement between dimensions. The image accompanying these words was a revolving door that kept turning. What I then perceived was as if something was being ‘unhooked’ from the left hemisphere of my brain and then plugged in to the right hemisphere. The message was: ‘”This is to make progress, progression INTO the light. There are light frequencies that won’t harm you but they will destroy parts of you, leftovers from old times, previous centuries of human, humanity’s development.” I was told that this process would touch my mortal life although it wouldn’t have the dramatic changes I  might be wishing for. I was reminded to eat lightly, drink lots of water (the usual stuff when major energetic shifts take place and the body needs to cope). I was warned that this ‘phase of recalibration’ would come with some discomfort but that I needed to ‘endure’ it to make the leap into the next evolutionary step. Towards the end of the session, I was urged to focus with intent and spend half an hour each day meditating on this ‘task’. The severe impact (strong physical reactions) would last for 3 weeks – after that they were supposed to lessen. I was also asked NOT to perceive them as as the annoying symptoms they are but to see them simply as indicators of change.

This was followed, 5 days later, by another message relating to the current ‘process’. The weekend of the solar eclipse – one that really knocked me off my feet – I had a meditation during which I communicated with a group of entities called ‘the Transformationists’. I perceived the image of human DNA and along with that the message “DNA lightcode activation”. That was it. I had no idea what they were talking about but it was clear that this was what’s happening to me.

Finally, on September 16th, I woke up in the middle of the night, knowing one of my primary guides ‘visited’ me. I was too tired to engage in any kind of conversation but since he rarely shows up, I felt it was important. So in the morning, I tried to make contact. He had come in to show me support during this ‘difficult time’ . When I asked about duration of this shift, how long I was to anticipate dealing with these physical reactions, he indicated that the shift should be over by mid March. I was told that this also applied to others on the spiritual path. So there it is, the light at the end of the tunnel! September may not mark the unfolding of big events changing the earth – as some seem to hope – but it already has been an intense, transformative month for me!

Finding JOY in what you do

10 days ago I shared our frustrations anticipation of a prospective move in my post ‘are we there yet?‘ . The move would be about creating a new home but even more so a new way of being. For quite a while now, we’ve been working on the Chrysalis Project, creating a ‘center for connection’ with the purpose of giving mortal humans an easy way of interacting with metaphysicals – and vice versa. However, to this date, the Chrysalisportal ‘only’ exists in virtual form (here)….and in the metaphysical realms of course.

I recently had an email-exchange about this topic with a fellow blogger (Nadine) who had been hoping to set up a healing center and ended up with what she calls a ‘virtual healing center’. I asked her if it was okay to share some of her inspiring thoughts on my blog. She agreed ! Here is what she wrote about her original idea, where it took her, what she learned in the process of pursuing her dream (even if the dream didn’t come true in that form- yet?-) and the importance of finding JOY in what you do:

“I remember my earlier days when I first had my vision of a healing center. I had this knowing that I was being led to the next step or person or place, a step closer to the fruition of my dream. I continue to still be led and guided — to another direction, though. I’ve been guided to focus on writing and blogging and turning my blog site into the healing center that I had long dreamed of and envisioned, albeit in virtual form. I have also been guided to embrace the idea that I AM that center through which healing and transformation takes place.  It is My Presence, My Being, My Light — that is the center. When I beam My Light and live in Joy I AM fulfilling my purpose and mission!

I’ve learned that when something takes too much effort, when I push, pressure and stress myself to accomplish something, when I force things to unfold….they don’t. Things, Life simply doesn’t happen that way. Sure, I can still push and make things happen — but for a price! The results are not worth the effort and the stress and pain. I’ve learned to practice instead the Art and Skill of Allowing. Flowing. I’ve come to realize that writing, blogging and sharing gives me the most Joy. I do it simply because I find Joy in doing so! I need to focus on the things that make me joyful — that’s all. That’s how I’m able to make the most contribution to the healing and ascension of humanity and the planet. I’m no longer pressuring and stressing myself unnecessarily to be doing something more ‘grand’ as a way of measuring the contribution that I’m making.

My original intention for my blog was to be a website for my healing practice. None of that happened as I’ve come to realize that building a healing practice isn’t truly what would give me the most joy. As I gained more clarity, as I slowly let go of this plan of setting up a healing practice, I also let go of my plan and dream of building a [physical] healing center — my attachment to it, at least. So, part of my process was to gain clarity on what my intention was/is — not only with the healing center but with my blogging and with anything else in Life that I’m thinking of creating and manifesting.

I may still end up coming back to my dream and vision of a healing center. By then, though, I will be creating simply from a space of Joy — instead of desperation, neediness, forcefulness and all the stress. I’ve become clear that the blocks showed up in my process of creating a center and prevented it from manifesting because I needed to come to this phase where I AM learning how to simply live and be in Joy — the most rightful space to be when creating and manifesting. Joy is an essential element. Joy is the energy of 5D Living and the New Earth that we are all creating.

As I’m clearing away old paradigms and programming, beliefs and patterns in order to move to higher dimensional thinking and Joyful and Joy-filled living, becoming a multi-dimensional being, I AM getting clearer and clearer as to who and what I AM. As I define, re-define, and refine me, I know the same clearing process is taking place in others. When we’ve done enough clearing, our energies will be more aligned. We will have shared and aligned values and principles. We will be coming from a space of Joy, creating and building a community and/or center from a Joyful and Joy-filled Space!”

PS: You’ll find more of Nadine’s thoughts on being-in-the-flow versus forcing things to happen here. If you are interested in learning more about our Chrysalis Project, you’ll find more info here.

KAYPACHA pele report … and some kick-ass energies

“Had an amazing transforming weekend…” could have been my own  words. However, I would probably have described mine as an amazing kick-ass weekend. WOW. There was a precursor to it and for the last 10 days writing/posting was not an option. The internet was mostly off limits for me. The current energies made me overly sensitive and any negative news ( = news in general) felt toxic. So in my little cave I went….. Transforming it was, that’s for sure! So far, September may not have gifted us with the BIG CHANGE(yet)  but at least for me, it’s been transformative indeed. Here is, what’s in store for us for the coming 7 days. 

Had an amazing transforming weekend myself and hope you did too!  As the north node solar eclipse sent us into this eclipse season with Lilith conjunct the north node, it set the tone for the next six months really as one of coming to terms, truth, and reality in our relationships, work, and goals.  It will be interesting to see how these all develop as Mercury goes retrograde this week, all the way back to the node and Lilith to review, rethink, and perhaps redo some thoughts, plans, and conversations (will be there in 3 weeks so more on that later!)

In the meantime, things are blasting away here at NPA as I am presenting all over the place and meeting awesome friends EVERYWHERE!  It is so comforting to know there are so many like minded, loving people on this planet that are ready and pushing to heal themselves, others, and Gaia. I did manage to record one of my presentations that is going out to the NPA community, and one coming up in Santa Fe is being livestreamed if you would like an extra long Pele Report!

The time is now,

To share my truth,

As an offering of light,

Love and gratitude.

We have a couple different options when dealing with the planetary energies this week.  One is to feel oppressed or overworked, blow a fuse and let others have it!  We may not be fully aware of how attached, pushy, or forceful we are being when trying to get our way.  The second is to feel threatened by some nasty other and cower down in fear.  The challenge will be to remain calm and centered between the two.

In this report, I discuss how doing what is meaningful, purposeful, and true to you personally can change a dull, depressing routine into a joy filled contribution to humanity.  As we re-examine, re-evaluate, and re-member that our truth lies within, we can more easily align not only our goals and dreams, but our daily and weekly lives toward achieving them.   As Mercury goes re-trograde for the next three weeks in Libra, you may find yourself re-visiting some thoughts, conversations, and approaches that need some re-fining and re-tuning.  Don’t be afraid of humbly approaching the situation, as cooperation at this time can produce some fantastic results.

So Much Love!

Kaypacha​